I recently passed the screening to be able to audition at GTC to possibly audition at SETC to possibly get paid summer acting work. Yeah, that's right. It's that complicated.
SETC, or South Eastern Theatre Conference, is one of the largest professional theatre conferences in the nation. In addition to fantastic plays from all over the region and workshops taught by theatre professionals, there are auditions. Oh yes, more auditions. Over 90 professional theatre company representatives sit in an enormous room, and 25 auditionees are ushered in at a time. One by one, you get to stand up there, say your number (not your name), and give your monologue and snippet of a song in 90 seconds.
I feel as if auditions are an inextricable part of my life. They follow me, beckon me, taunt me, put me down. Yet I keep coming back because they hold the key to my success. Why? I LOATHE auditions. Strongly, passionately, and with a deep burning hatred. They control what I do. If I pass, I get work. If I don't, I'll wait tables.
So, I am always always always reading plays, searching for that perfect monologue for my acting style. I am always always always listening to Broadway music, searching for that perfect song for my range. It is constant. Never ending.
It is sort of a catch-22 it seems. I have always told myself that I would never do something I hated for the rest of my life. Yet it seems as though in order to do what I love for the rest of my life, I must do something I hate. Is it worth it? Does the love outweigh the hate?
Yes. Always and forever, yes.